when i was a kid,
i always told myself that one day il be on tv!
il be famous! *i wanna be an actress*
time past
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lots thing happened when i was in form 3!
i feels like i need some changing
i apply Techincal school and i got it!
*i have no idea what is ELECTRONIC means *ikut member,la ni kan
so i learn myself out!
but still im thinking what should i be? i wanna be an actress! still!
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till one day sekolah buat rombongan ke JMTI
(Japanese Malaysian Techinical Institute)
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i fall in love!
then after SPM, lots of audition,
AF,DEWI REMAJA
i dont go!
i was at the door for Akademi Fantasia audition!
fill up the form!
sign in!
yet i changed my mind i told my dad!
let me at least have a Diploma before anything happened!
then i fall in love with someone that i shouldn't!
and my dream comes true! i got to study in JMTI ~ i am so excited with Japanese Language
as i have Japanese StepGrandMother !
i forgot my dreams to be an actress!
i study my ass out and enjoy my love life *not so enjoyable at all! (i regrets till now)
then my Japanese StepGrandMa said.
"if you be able to fluent in Japanese!
after this Diploma, il sent you in Japan for 3 months!
stay with my mother over there and survive, back to Malaysia... work with me! be a translator "
thats what she said ^^
i was too happy and i agreed!
too many things happened after 3 years me & my so called boyfriend at that time
break off! i was so looking forward to be in Japan! really!!!
so, 6 months practical! everything is ruined!
*i blamed myself*
so i got to know this one guy!
*i did wrote about him in this blog if you dig, 2011 perhaps, but deleted most of it already especially ENTRY THAT HAS HIS PHOTO & NAMES*
falling for him! was a gift and i was soooooo in love (love kill me huh!)
i was focusing to be with him till i forgot about Japan!
After 6 months! we broke up and i was pissed! i was mad! i din think of anything!
i decide to go for work interview and i got it!
once i entered my first day at WORK!
ALL MY DREAMS WAS LIKE HANCUR?????
i forgot about Japan, i forgot about my Japanese's study! i even forgot about being an actress!
i work for 3 years and i realized
this is not what i want!
i want to be free!
i dont want to be in this Electronic field even from the starts!!!!!
so i work my ass out!
(well cant complain much! i was in a runway show, i did some few part time modeling, i did theater and i even was in TV2 drama called CHOMBEE ANAK MAMU)
work my ass off to save some amount of money just to get out from Malaysia.
*as i dont ever dare to spill about my trip to Japan to my grandma since she is mad at me about it,well after 3 years? can you ask it again ?BIG NO*
i want to work in Aussie!
then i fall in this world called fangirling
*i did starts fangirling when i was 10 with NSYNC but stop because they disband!*
so after like 9 years back to fangirling?
ONE DIRECTION for sure,
then these IDIOTS go for HIATUS!
while saving some money!
i was bored*
oh yeah love life? nahhhhhh....
i am not that stupid to fall in love anymore*, thats what i thought! hahahaha
One Direction gone for hiatus!
me? i was to clever! digging back my old external hard disk and searching for JDRAMA that i love to watch* OGURI SHUN*
soooooooo !!!!!!
i can't help to save myself anymore as i fall in love with this
JOHNNY'S BOYBAND!
*here i am back again taking Japanese course to be fluent in Japanese!*
while this! too many things i need to face!
i really want to turn back the time! or at least can i reincarnation ??
i know i will definitely
chasing my dream to be an ACTRESS!
Its just too late for me ^^
ps: i was fine before i met YUYA
sorry , RIP my grammar!