What is your definition about first love?

I used to think that first love is your first boyfriend. People said that it is hard to forget your first love. 
Is it true? That why I feel nothing towards my first boyfriend? I was wondering...
Then some said that the first love is the boyfriend that you love with your whole heart till you willing to sacrifice everything for the person just for them to be happy. Then, to think again that yes I do have one of them that I falling hard and willing to let him go just to make him happy. (AT THAT TIME). But I moved on and I feel nothing towards him anymore. Like whenever he come back or I am trying to picturing myself marrying him, NO! It will never happened because I am not I use to be before. So, that is not my first love too?

WHAT IS THE ACTUAL DEFINATION ABOUT FIRST LOVE?

Then a junior came to me and asked about my love experience. So I told her about this guy that until today, if someone mentioned his name or anything related to him, I will feel something, I will feel heartache, regrets angry, good memories so many mix feeling and I rather quite but wanting to listen more about him. At first I thought its because between us has no closure but then when the junior asked when do i started to like him, I was like hmmmm perhaps when I was in primary school? Bammmm!!!!

Then I was like asking the junior, 

 " Is it because he is my first love, the first person I like this is why I have all this mix feeling towards him? "

She just shake her head saying 

 " I don't know "

So here i am asking all my lovely readers,

WHAT IS YOUR DEFINATION ABOUT FIRST LOVE?

Do please answer me because I am confuse :)

American Horror Story: Roanoke

A friend a work keep bugging me to watch Season 6 of American Horror Story, he said he like this season better than American Horror Story : Asylum. So I think I shall give it a try at least on the first episode and see how it goes.

It turn out to be a very good story line. I like it so much. Its unique and no dragging. The plot is straight with no twist but I really watch it further to my eyes because it is thriller and disturbing. It shared disgusting image and villain scene. 

PLOT

After a disturbing incident, a young couple (Lily Rabe and André Holland) move into a seemingly perfect home built in the 18th century in the woods of North Carolina. However, the building turns out to be in close proximity to the site of the legendary Lost Colony's disappearance, and as horrific supernatural events occur at the house, the couple start to sense something dark underneath the facade.

MY THOUGHTS 

 There series started as a documentary of the history of what happened to Miller's family once they moved to a new house where they do not know much about it. I like how the story flow because the real Shelby is explaining her feeling to the camera while Audrey plays the character. Beside listening to Shelby, Matt and Lee we can see the visual of Audrey, Dominic and Monet who are playing the role on screen. Seriously this series has no mercy. They just killed and slaughter whoever they want. I do not how to categories The Butcher, is she a demon, devil or a ghost? Or maybe an evil spirit? So, The Butcher will only be there at the night of BLOOD MOON . Why is The Butcher exist? This is why you have to watch because this series is amazing. Up to 5 episode finally the documentaries is finished. As much as they know that this is base on the true story of Shelby, Matt and Lee yet because of money, the producer insist to do a season 2 with all the cast are in the same house during the BLOOD MOON. He wants to catch the real event and store as much camera in the house. But The Butcher always there and never left, so the incident happened. While the incident happened, there are 3 young youtubers trying to find a way to the house and got killed to. After the next morning when the police arrived at the scene, they suspected Audrey is the one who killed others and the police killed her. Lee, the one at fault can live freely which is not fair. Hmmmm... Well, there are so many things happened in these 10 episode but the last youtuber that went to the house are stupid as well. It is base on the true story why do people do not want to believe it!

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A Tale of Thousand Stars

Lots of fan has been waiting for this drama for over a year due to Covid and finally it aired!
I watched it because of Earth and White and of course the cliché story line but it is LGBT!
Most important thing is it is from GMMTV.

I am watching this series and ranting using each episode instead. This is the first time I am watching Mix's acting. Well, he is a new actor but already got the main role. Kudos!! While Earth looks so handsome in the whole series. I am so falling in love with EarthMix as they seen to have the whole lots chemistry together. I am so happy that finally Earth has someone to be his fixed partner and hoping them to be one of the royal GMMTV couple as well! 

• Drama: A Tale of Thousand Stars
• Country: Thailand
• Episodes: 10
• Aired: Jan 29, 2021 - ?
• Aired On: Friday
• Original Network: GMM 25
• Duration: 60 min.
• Content Rating: 13+ - Teens 13 or older

PLOT

A volunteer teacher dies in a tragic accident, in which her heart is transplanted to Tian. Through a series of diary entries Tian learns about her life; her secrets and interests. Including her promise to Chief Forest officer Phupha, about counting a thousand stars with him. Tian then decides to follow in her footsteps and complete her dream. With Tian a new volunteer teacher, he attempts to befriend Phupha. Yet, Phupha gives off a cold exterior. Slowly the two grow close, but Tian's heart beats fast around the forest officer. As he starts to fall for him, much like its previous owner did. But with the area being dangerous, can they keep their thousand-star promise?

(Source: walmartjimin from MDL)

 MY THOUGHTS

EPISODE 1

Episode 1 is beautifully done. I am loving this series so far. Tian has put in his mind that he will die one day and live his life to the fullest. Never care about anyone but enjoy. To have the 2nd chance in live seem so hard for him to change his mindset back. With the question from his friends and some slight glimpse in his dreams/imagination of seeing a girl. He decided to dig how who is the donor of his heart. The scene where he went to her house and took the notebook was good. He just admitted that he is the ex-boyfriend that come over to take few things that is borrowed. One more scene that i love is where Tian and Phupha walk in the opposite direction and touch each other's had is perfectly done. I feel doki doki. And the fact that Tian wanted to follow what Torfun did in her life is good and meet up with Phupha's evil side. I can not wait for episode 2!

- WHERE WE FEEL HAPPY, WE FEELS LIKE HOME - 

EPISODE 2

Phupha prank Tian since the first day at the village. He let Tian take a bath with cool water in the river and Tian is a pranker himself too. He tricked Phupha to dive in the water as well. Seems like the students are not that excited with Tian's class yet. He need to work hard. The scene when Phupha helped Tian with the mosquito net is cute when they looked at each other's eyes. And Phupha feels like he is looking at Torfun's eyes actually. He keep remembering the moment with him and her but then Tian comes in the middle of it. Tian made a very bad decision by bringing the kids to the waterfall. He barely know them. The cutest part is he is trying his best to win them. So, incident happened and Phupha was trying to yell at Tian but Tian quickly pack up his bag. Phupha looks so worry, i believe Phupha do not want Tian to be gone because whenever they near each other, he feel close to her.

-Do your best and dont be discourage by any obstacle so that you wont let yourself down with the path you have chosen-

EPISODE 3

Tian : What is the definition of a good teacher?

Phupa : YOU!

Seriously he just straight forward like this but Tian ignore it. Kyaa!! My heart is pouting,  LOL! So, Tian is trying his best to be close to all the villages and mix around. although he still on pills yet he still make a afford to stay at least for 3 months. Oh well seems like Phupha want it to happens too. aww so sweet when they started to worry about each other. And every time Phupha is closer, Tian's heartbeats is strong. Of course Torfun feels the same right. After an incident occur, finally Tian is fully welcome by all the villagers with the blessing ceremony. Seeing Tian drinking and eating unhealthy food makes me anxiety like a mother who worry about their kids. Sigh... And Phupha finally saw the scar. 

-To win someone's heart, you must first give your own-  

EPISODE 4

This episode its just too sweet. Phupha seems to be showing a love side of his. Can see the jealousy all over his face too. Phupha started to questions that Tian and Torfun has the similarity. They are just too cute in few since when they are together. While Tian is curiosity about Phupha and Torfun's relationship, Phupha is wondering about Tian's scar. I was like , whenever i see Rang, i see trouble is coming alone. Istg Drake is hilarious in this series, lol i i like his character. Tian climbing up the mountain with his finished pills is making me worry, sigh!So, Phupha's finally got his answer about scar but not about Torfun. And also i learn about Hornbill when it find its partner and stay there till die. Is it the fact? its interesting. I grin so much while watching this episode.

-To sacrificed oneself in favor of others is a great bravery-

EPISODE 5

So Tian did not answered Phupha's question about Torfun with the truth. He hide it. He knows everyone in the village loves Torfun so if he tells them the truth it would be hard for him to stay there anymore. I love Tul is coming on the spot to be with Tian after be able to contact him. Best friends always have each other's back. And Phupha's questioning Yod about Tian has gone the city is hilarious. He seems to not liking when Tian did not tell him anything. Omg Tul, his advice to Tian is just so easy and straight forward. Its funny but its just make sense that he did not susprise in anything. We need a friend like him in real life. The scene where Phupha sent Tian to his house is to sweet. Both of them finally realize their feeling for each other. I am so scare with the truth later.. huhuhu Finally Tian fall after few episode of anxiety that he gave us. The unexpected all down while playing kite. I am so scare of next episode.

-Learn to accept yourself for who you are before waiting for someone else to accept you-

EPISODE 6

This episode is so sweet. We can see how much Phupha is falling for Tian and the jealousy has appear 100% from Phupha's face till Dr Nam has released it. It always revealed that Phupha actually know that he is gay from the starts since he only thinks of Torfun as his sister. Dr, Nam has finally knows that Tian had a heart transplant because Tian told him it was heart operation before and it was two different things. Tian asked Dr Nam to not telling Phupha about it but Longtea has found Torfun's notebook and Tian told him the truth. Longtea is angry why Tian is not telling the villagers that Torfun is dead but it is not Tian fault. Phupha is the one who wanted to keep it a secret. The incident with the fire is scary but the preview of next episode is sweet! I can not wait!

- If your believe in yourself that you did a right thing today, you don't need to worry about tomorrow -

EPISODE 7

This episode is so sweet and cute between Phupha and Tian. Phupha teasing Tian is in another level. I saw in some tweets that said in the novel, Phupha knows that he is 100% gay but Tian is never been mention. The longer he stays in the villagers and think of himself that he brings nothing but trouble to them, he finally wants to reveal the truth. He can not carry the burden in the shoulder anymore. So, he wants to admit that he is the one who cause of Torfun's death. Longtae is a true friend of Tian in village who understands him and is always with him without any judgement and second thought. A true, matured person in whole village. It was suppose to be Phupha but Phupha is being so judgmental. Its so sad to see Tian's tears when he is not guilty and he did not ask for Torfun heart to be in his.

-Things might have been damaged and broken. But nothing can bring us down as long as we have love and unity-

EPISODE 8 

I am so upset with Phupha for yelling at Tian asking why Tian is lying to them? The responsibility of telling about Torfun's death should be you! Why are u keeping it as a secret and blame it on Tian? Luckily the sane person in this village is Dr Nam and Longtea. Dr Nam ship them both and he cleared the misunderstanding between them as fast as he could. When it revealed Tian is not the one who drove the car I am so happy! And so happy that it is not Tul as well. But its true when Tian explained to Longtea he still think that he is responsible about Torfun's death as he is the one who hand in the weapon. And again Tian is in danger again.

- We all makes mistake. What's more important is what we learn from them -

EPISODE 9

Phupha is shoot when he is trying to save Tian from danger. It shows the throwback of Torfun and Phupha. Torfun asked Phupha to bring him up to the mountain again and this is what Tian wanna do. He wants to fulfil Torfun's wish. The bed scene where Phupha was laying in the medical room after removed the bullet is sweet and soft. I got few comment from friend that serve Phupha's right to get shoot like that after he hurt Tian. Huaa!!! Why do i feel soft about him, I am upset with Phupha for sure but he do not deserve to be shoot like that. :( After Phupha is okay, Tian's turn to get upset after he learned the truth about Phupha knowing him. I am so sad when Phupha said if Tian go back to the city it means that Tian reply to his feeling. aaaa this should not turn to be this way. 

- Forgiving is much harder than apologizing, especially forgiving yourself. Because no one can tell you want to do expect you, yourself -  

EPISODE 10

This is the last episode. Istg that i waited for ages for Kapoot to appeared and finally she did! Wearing a white dress and I screamed so loud! I love her seriously! Oh sorry for being gay lol, ok now back to Tian, so he gave in so much. Sent Phupha letters to have the reply but no. Thanks for Nam's wedding and and the moment Phupha walked in the hall Tian is....... OKAY WATCH IT !!!! i am not going to give any spoiler. The airport scene was amazing! These two portray their emotionally perfect especially Tian. 

THIS SERIES IS FULL OF EMOTION AND SO GOOD TO WATCH. THE PRODUCTION TOOK 3 YEARS TO BUILD UP EVEYRTHING AND FINALLY IT RELEASED AND ITS WORTH IT ! SORRY FOR MY CAPSLOCK BUT THIS IS A HIGHLY RECOMENDED SERIES. DO NOT WORRY ABOUT YUCKY OF GAY COUPLE BECAUSE GMMTV WONT GIVE U TOO MUCH BED SCENE OR KISSING SCENE AS U IMAGINE !

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I wanna Do 30 Days Writing Challenge

After finished the 15 days writing challenge so i think why not I do 30 days now since I don't have any idea to write. 

I really hope I can finished this challenge in time.

Good luck to me :)

Worldless Wednesday : my celebrity crush

 

Senior Secret Love: Puppy Honey 2

After watched Senior Secret Love : Puppy Honey, and I continue to watched Season 2. Because I can not get enough with Pick and Rome and I wanna know how their relationship develop.  

I finally know why OffGun is famous and keep getting their own series each year. The evolution of OFF JUMPUL is surreal. He used to hate skin ship with anyone and hate it whenever Gun being clingy. I saw lots of fans making fans video about this and surprisingly, there are so much different of Off JUMPOL as Pick and OFF JUMPOL as Khai. I don't say that these two has no chemistry when they played the role as PickRome because that is totally off when he dislike being touch by Rome. 

• Drama: Senior Secret Love: Puppy Honey 2
• Country: Thailand
• Episodes: 8
• Aired: Mar 18, 2017 - May 6, 2017
• Aired On: Saturday
• Original Network: GMM One
• Duration: 45 min.
• Content Rating: 13+ - Teens 13 or older

PLOT

Porsche has moved away to pursue an internship, leaving Emma behind. Causing stress on them and their relationship. Porsche meets Friend, a happy and bright girl and Emma meets Night, her brother's friend from high school. Pik is still confused over his sexuality and feelings for Rome. However, Din, an ex-member of Porsche's cat and dog club is becoming extremely close to Rome. Pik insists he doesn't have feelings for Rome, but he feels jealous when Rome is with Din. Will Pik accept himself for who he his? Will Porsche's and Emma's relationship stay strong?

MY THOUGHT

This is a story about a long distance relationship between Porsche and Emma. I can understand Emma because she is a princess that always has someone around her. Rome use to be with her all the time but Rome now is clingy to someone he love so Emma is left alone. Having a boyfriend that far away with lack of communication makes she feels sad and lonely. Porsche is the one who treated her as a princess and left her alone so if she become an attention seeker so it is not her fault. I felt sorry for Night. He came at the wrong timing, he tried to snatched Emma away but the love is stronger each time. I read lots of comments that hating on Friend. Well, Friend did not even disturb the relationship between Porsche and Emma. As someone who has lost the parents, Friend is acting as an attention seeker but so kind and lovely. She did not acting cute just to get Porsche attention. She is purely kind and innocent. It proved at the scene when she feed Rome the meatball. She just did it out of her gratitude. Of course she cried a lot when she knows that Porsche gave the cat to Emma. She is the one who found the cat and pasted flyers everywhere to let the owner knows yet Porsche gave the cat away without talking to her first. Despite that, yes, she has feeling for Porsche its okay since Porsche took a good care of her but she never confess and choose to move away from there.  Pick and Rome 's is the most I love. I love how Rome is being so honest and confident of how much Pick loves him even though Pick did not say anything. Rome knows Pick is jealous between Din and him but Rome wants Pick to confess. This confident gay is cuter every time he smile. The scene when Rome been beaten by the snake is hilarious. If I were Rome, I would already slap Pick, lol !  love how Pick being so asshole and chill when it comes to Rome. Pick's action speaks louder than words. The conflict between Din being Rin is so unclear and people said Pick is falling at the trapped but we don't know what actually happened right ? Beside Pick is straight so he need to adjust his mind to accept that he is falling for Rome.

Dear OffGun,

Please keep being sweet to each other on cam but off cam its up to both of you. I do not pray for both of you to be GAY but just please stay the way you are till I can move on! LOL. I love the clingy Gun and cheerful Off.
All said that in 5 years they work together, Gun did not change for a bit but Off changed 360deg and become softer to only GUN ATTHAPHAN. Off said that he scare if he did not change than he will lose Gun one day.

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