deeply hurting me inside

perit je tgk title kt ats nuh..
surely stress...
dun eva2 get in this situation...
i beg all of u..
sebab aku bru ja lepas dari sengsaraan neh...
well,ekceli...demi ALLAH..klu aku tau dia dah berpunya..
aku xkn ganggu...tapi dia charming ja...buget cm xdak gurl..
padahal...da 5thun kapel...
and da nk tunang pown...ekceli now da pun bertunang..!
love him?nope!
starting aku dpt tau dia dah berpunya..
aku da tekad yg aku akan tglkn dia...
eventhought..hurm!!
precious!sumpah...aku nyesal kenal dia!
aku xmampu nk wat papa..nk mendoakan balasan pa yg bakal dia dapat pun aku xtau..
serius...aku xtau.....
sebab SAYANG?tolong la..org cm dia xlayak untuk disayangi...
aku stay pun sebab dok mengadap muka dia ja..
tapi ALHAMDULILLAH...
everything is over rite now..
i need to be strong 4 myself..my family...my friend...n of coz 4 him too....

ri tue..tgh2 wat keja...
im feel so empty...
aku rasa kelam sangat...sakit sngt ngn chenta yg aku tgh hadapi...
aku pejam mata rapat2....
aku rasa diri aku dialam lain...
xmalu la cita lam neh...
serius...i dun care sapa yg baca pun..
tapi yg i sure...dats was the worst tyme 4 me...
when i closed my eyes and opened it back
i cant see anything...darkness around me...
im keeping calling sumone!! aku juz sebut perkataan "B"
aku ckp... "b....tlg la..bb tkot dok sorg2....bwk bb kuaq dari tmpt neh"
n i cried.....
i saw....bnyk tgn yg dihulurkn....smua org yg aku kenal....
aku tgk ja..mampu tgk...tapi xtercapai.....
tetiba satu tgn hulur...aku trus capai...i cant see his face....
i din know him.....muka dia gelap..cant see his eye...
i cant see anything..!tapi aku rasa tenang..rasa selamat bila capai tgn dia..
slowly dia tarik tgn aku slowly...kuaq dari tmpt gelap tuh...
then aku nampak cahaya lampu....
then aku rasa tersedaq dari alam tuh....
n im starting thinking bout him...
yes!surely..itz him....
il text him dat mornink...
thank god he replied...
YA ALLAH..SESUNGGUHNYA..AKU BERASA TERAMAT BERSYUKUR KERANA DIPERTEMUKAN DGN DIA....EVEN AKU TAU MMG XDAK HARAPAN AKU NGN DIA..BUT IM HAPPY WIF HIM.....

P/s : aku x bermksud nk lukakn mana2 pihak...tapi aku yg alami smua neh..hanya aku ja tau apa yg aku rasa...tapi aku redha.....tlg la jgn serabot kan aku yg dah serabot neh.....harap maaf :(

sadness

18 neh itz ur big day...
sorry sebab bnyk bg tekanan kat kamoo
saya terlalu sygkn kamoo
smpai x sanggup nk kongsi kamoo dgn sapa2..
tapi sapa lah saya nk dibandingkn dgn dia...
kamoo terlalu perfect untuk saya..
kamo yg paling terbaik..
tapi kamoo musnah kan segalanya dalam sekelip mata..
penah kamoo terfikir apa prasaan saya?
hanya pada kamoo jawapan dia!!!

wats happening??

lovebite???

clean it up!!!

Penat lelah,mengupas pulas clear kebakaran di ali's guest h0use!bnyk arang l0r!

Bermandi arang lagi hari ni dia ali's guest h0use..!wuwu..kepenatan k0t!

Mataku kuyu!perlukn tenaga untk mand arang lg es0k! Baba,i love u so much..

Tgh tgk ali's guest h0use dipecahkan.. Hanya Allah ja tahu apa yg ada dlm ni.. BABA.. I dunn0 h0w 2 describe it,but i miss u s0 much..

Ponet2!!

KEBAKARAN DI ALI'S GUEST HOUSE

the fire start at 11 am till 5pm.

9 houses burn that day

including shalini's guest house and ours
nobody hurt

15 bomba

99% of ali's guest house turn into a dust

SPECIAL THNKS TO all the BATU FERINGHIRIAN.

We l0st our preci0us mem0ry wif BABA.. its ALI'S GUEST H0USE... M0OD : CRYING!

sedeyh sngt10x...
its memory wif baba tuh..
da xdak da...
hurm...

sob...sob...

k....aku nk cta neh...
ri tue wedding reena eratz...
erm...xdpt aku nk p tgk reena..
ekceli aku da smpai komtar kot..
g ngn wan...
dia antaq nek 125..dala pakai bju kurung..
cm lawak lak..

then tara nk tunggu sarah meh ambik n nk g skali..
aku g la lepak karoke lu ngn dayah..
tgk plih2 lagoo..
mama call....she's crying...
xclear dgq mama ckp..then i heard GUEST HOUSE TERBAKAQ!!!
boom!!!
meletop jantung....
s0,rushing balik..pnjm moto le'are... smpai sana..
i juz can hug my mom!!!

antara cerita yg didgr...
klik untuk baca =(

sooo longgg untillll i can writeee againnn!!! haha

well baby..
i miss u so much...
u rr my gucci..!!!
well...i meet my drakula yg suka ggt aku until lebam abeh tgn2 aku...
so damn stupid..but dun worry...
i love u so much...dats y i will kill u wif sumthng dat u dunn0..
wakakaka...

so sat about my tenet kt umah yg cm bodoh tuh!!!
menyampah!meluat tul...
slow servis n wat ever!!!!

happy wif my own life rite now...
no more problem inside outside!!
hahaa...

sad cant update a lots of things happened in year 2010!!!
nk li berukband rr!!!
wuwu..tunggu loan...

well...
12.2.2011
i lost the thing dat i really love...
but i dunno y i din regret it...
n i hope u appreciate it mr.drakula!