Dear you,
I don't know why i wrote this letter but i feel like i need to do this because i cant talk about this to you face to face.
Seeing your status this morning makes me feel like a loser!!!
Its just not fair that u have your happy ending!!! apa you buat kat i really torn me to million pieces tau.U put all the blame on me and u have your revenge pulak tu. Its just not fair.
If i talked about our relationship when we was 17 and that time i was really deeply madly in love with you then who walk away? who blew every-things away? you tak rasa bersalah kaaaaaaa????
then we jumpa balik after three years then i ada someone in my life and u expect me to leave that person for you??Seriously you think i will do that? Because that moment your time has passed!!!! You dont know how much pain you cause me when u left. I cried every single day and i stood in front of my phone every time to wait for your call.. Every unknown number that i got makes me breathless but kecewa yg i dapat.After i know the call its not from you i was break down for the rest of the day. Crying of missing you was my best friend that time. And your reason about you left just' when u need me im not there so the feelings go away from day to day' im speechless i don't know what to say i just smiled with that answer. then we spent the time together but i dont know that you was actually hopping me to be urs again. Then we lost contact again its just because you din make me feel special at all..but you dah put the blame on me..u cakap kwn2 u cakap i balas dendam kt u time tu.
after i broke up with my boy friend that time i cari u balik.... we was in a relationship again and that time Allah bagi i rasa apa u rasa 'when i need you and you not there so there feeling go away from day to day' but masa i walked away you din stop me at all...Masa you walked away i macam gila cari you...try to call you every single day and eventhough i was in hostel that time every day i lari p computer lab to see your email or testi on friendster. but u??? you let me go..
Then after year by year our parents meet up again and started to arrange our marriage why u act like its going to happened???
I am not in love with you that time i swear but i never erase anything about you all the memories is with me so with those memories i still remember what you like and unlike and i was going to use that to make this marriage works... i dreamt a load about us. I planned everything to make you happy as my husband even i know that time i am not in love with you.
Its just not meant to be because you got your revenge and what you did make me feel like it was all my fault :( i was and pain and i am now!!!
Looking both of you together..in the pictures..the status everything makes me feel the aches..its so painful. i feel like its unfair to me because you found your happy ending. why can we both have the happy ending in the same time even with the different person? Why??? but sapa i nk question smua ni kan? because i tau in you heart you really proud with what you have!!!!
YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE ITS ALL MY FAULT
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