I lost my grandma last night

I lost my beloved grandma last night and she's gone without telling me goodbye.
Its sad when on the 2nd Raya I went to police station for permission but only my parents got it. So, I let my parents go without me. But I keep telling myself that at least let me meet her for the last time before anything happened but the luck is not on me. With this MCO and things, my mom got called from her brother in law said that we all lost her. He called her with a tears and apologies because he can not do anything about it. My mom keep saying that it is not his fault yet he still said its his fault.

My grandma was so strong. As a single mother she don't need anyone to depends on. She work for her living and proud to be herself. She is kind of person who willing to take any meds just to be healthy so that she can work and get her own money. She did so many things. She work at school canteen, she open her own stall , she work in factory like i said, she do not need anyone to depends on because she knows that she can make money on her own.

She diagnosed with Diabetes yet she is still okay. I always saw he carry a bag with medicines. She took it everywhere with her. She said that he wants to be healthy she wants to work and one day out of nowhere her leg started to wound and festering yet she don't wanna give up. She did so many things, she listen to so many advice to make that festering goes away. He does not want to go to clinic because she was scared.

Day by day it gets worst and we decided to sent her to hospital and she got amputated.
Ever since that, I never see her work hard to be healthy anymore. Whenever I joke around with her, she keep saying that she only has one leg now. It makes me sad. Told my mom that there are so many option, we can buy the wheelchair or prosthetic leg. As long as she willing to try but she just wanted to lay down. Even she do not feel like sitting down by her own. She wants help. That is where I noticed that she is mentally tired.

My aunt, the one who take care of her told that she once said that " if she died, she wants only family who manage her " Jenazah " and it comes true. Due to this MCO only us, the family are there to settled it quickly. All those who came were only relatives. 

So, Nani does not has lots of money but she got left her jewelry. These 3 siblings sort it out all and I got one of my Nani's bracelet and locket.